sadness.

suddenly feel so sad about my life.
not trying to be emo or something..
but yeah..
pathetic life of mine is getting worst day by day.

first, parents so used to lies.
they just trying to lying and lying and lying non stop.
like it's a very normal to them.
i was so happy about going a trip with them.
dad agreed with that.
but what to say MOM trying to make it all worst and worst.
last time, mom would say yes and dad would say no.
BUT now...
why everything have to happen again and again and again?!

they said that we're going london during march since my sister having holiday.
yeah, we listened.
and dad seems more serious and i helped him check every single cheap air tickets that available.
but he just don't want to book and pay for it because he said too expensive..
wait for later on..
i was like OKAY...
but if later on the air ticket will going to rise..
and okay!
let's just get over it..

then next!
found him a very good hotels with reasonable price and even showed him.
okay!
fine, he doesn't want to book it say wait it later on.
and now is already 29th february!
and holiday in one more week !
and he said he need to see first?!
WTH.
i'm just getting more pissed off day by day..

fine!
i suggested Hong Kong since it's asia country and go now would be much much more cheaper.
and FYI i told him to go during december that time and he said it's too expensive !
okay fine !
forget about it and we went singapore !
now ! he's the on suggested to go london and now change to hong kong !
and mom !
talking stupid rubbish that..
she said that she doesn't have more annual left and need to keep some for some travel.
and said very expensive !
i checked the price for the air ticket to Hong Kong that is only cost RM834/person !
it;s super cheap and even cheaper than air asia !

i never ever complain sitting air asia !
i don't mind at all but they just getting on my nerves !
like seriously?!
lies after lies after lies !
and mom said wanted to go Europe during April for flower?!
FLOWER?! seriously?!?!?!?!

fine okay!
i told my dad and asked for many times that are we going to Hong Kong like for sure..
he answered : ask your mom first.
i told him that your wife doesn't want to go..
and he said wait May holiday..
wait and wait and wait !
always need to wait !

i'm a very impatient person !
when u said that u want to go travel during March..
okay fine ..
march i wait !
and now is march !
and said May !
i think when May that time he would say wait december !
like that i don't have to go travel anymore !
WHAT THE FUCK.

i feel like scolding bad words to my parents like seriously!
i scolded my sister so why not my parents?!
but NO!

TOLD my dad that ask him talk to my mom about the trip !
until now ! he just doesn't want to mention about the trip.
u know what?!
i don't want to give up because i want to go!
i must get what i want !
i'm just so sick of waiting and waiting and waiting and lies !
so stupid.

mom said that flight to HK would be super expensive..
then going europe also expensive?!
hello?!
get a life.. check online and she doesn't go online at all.
talk crap to your own daughter that goes online every single day !
wrong way !
so wrong.
even my dad talking stupid crap to me..
like hello?!
i'm the one checked for u !
i'm the one found the hotels and accomadation for you ?!
trying to crap in front of me?!?!?!?

yeah, cs told me that my dad won't be able to go anymore.
because my parents so used to lies.
yeah!
but i never give up !
i will get what i want !
i want to go Hong Kong!
i want to go !
fucking loser of my parents.
yeah !
so stupid !
useless !
liar !

i will hate people that lies to me !
i will.
end !