Friday, April 27, 2012

unknown thoughts

these few days, start my work.
it was okay on the first day because i'm new.
but on the second day, omggg !
i can't believe my back very tired and eyes almost blind.
there's 5 banks cheque i need to type in !
and most of all, there is so many zeroooooooos.
cheque with big amount and bank account number is long and zeros.
my eyes curling up after awhile.
but the people there are great, funny.
and they speak Cantonese.

as you all know my cantonese suck like shit.
so i just kept quiet.
and most of all, why they asked me : why don't want talk? later u faint i also don't know leh.
i said : emmm because i don't really know how to speak cantonese.
they said : HUH you banana ah?
i said : no no no, just don't know speak cantonese.
they said : your parents didn't teach you speak?
i said : emm, my parents english educated.
they said : oh ! u come here, we all can teach you.
i said : oh okay....
awkward moment ever.
and i sat at there way side table which can't be seen xD
that's a good thing !

well, back to the topic : unknown thoughts.
well, some thoughts that bothering me much.
some stuff, some scene, some feelings..
it is i'm thinking too much?
or i'm just being who am i at the past?

thought that i can't be told, can't be spoken, can't be express.
what should i do?
i also cannot give my own solution.
like maths.
looking at the question, and give the expression HUH?!
should i know this or should i don't know this?
i might know it but it never pop out in my mind.
i might don't know it because it never appear before.

it's the same like my thoughts.
been bugging me for months.
over thinking is bad.
but i can't held thinking about it.
i might know it before - past tense.
i might don't know it now - present tense.
i will know it / don't know it soon - future tense.
should i search for the answer?
answer must be answered or might not be answered.
well, some people some situation haven't been secured yet.

searching for the answer is very tough.
because might end up broken in pieces.
or end up finding the broken pieces.
broken pieces must be mend but would it mend back to normal as original?
but somehow, we will lose something and gain something in this bad situation.
just see whether i want gain or lose something in the future.
but i know that i maintain it now.
now, always the best.

kept your words.
hold on your dream.
kept your promises.
wish stuff that done it my way.
i think i would be better alone.
wouldn't think that other way is the best for my thoughts.
because NOTHING CAN CHANGE anymore.


Wednesday, April 25, 2012

calming.


this song is a very nice songs.
i really addicted to it since mostly english songs are rock and LMFAO's songs.
kinda bored with it so change my genre back to chinese songs.
actually it's very good.
some voice, songs never get over it.
this song i heard it from a drama - 小资女孩向前冲 ( office girl )
that drama is good seriously.
the main male character is handsome <3
recommended *4 stars*
very emotional sometimes hearing this songs ><


the next song is also a chinese songs.
this is where i heard on TV.
i never knew about this drama at all actually because TV haven't showing it.
but what i know is mostly korean stars in this movie actually.
park jun min - my sister favourite guy.
is about bakery.
this song sang by a girl called Kimberley ( i don't know who is she actually )
i just love the melody, i didn't really pay attention to the lyrics until i heard for the 5th times.
(:
nice song *recommended*


next song - JJ Lin
well, i heard this song during work at Megamall that time and this kills my bored.
and i like calm songs and i didn't really pay attention to lyrics most of the time.
i just love the melody and calmness of this song.
i know this is an old song but it still very addictive.
*thumbs up*


this song also heard from TV.
i just love how lively this song can be.
makes me feel very comfy with this songs around.
free hugs. (:
somehow A-Lin is a great singer after all.
very strong powerful voice.
never knew her until saw her MV on tv that day and realise she sangs lots of songs before.
really is a great singer.



this is the new song i heard on radio.
this song i don't know how to describe.
somehow, the melody attracted me.
and the lyrics -
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to rememberThe people we used to be
It's even harder to picture

That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?

And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down


I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed

Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I'll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday

I gave you my love to borrow
But just gave it away

You can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect you to care

I know I've said it before
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed

Still stucked in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

etc etc etc.

# the sentences that i highlighted is the lyrics that sounds so true.

listen to songs makes me feel calm most of the time and sing-a-long makes me feel even better especially in the car (:
<3

Monday, April 23, 2012

Pre-Redang trip.

well, i'm kinda excited for redang trip..
but i don't know how my friends feel like going redang??


PACKAGE ITINERARY

DAY 1
>> Check in
>> Refreshment and briefing
>> 12.30pm - 2.00 pm Lunch
>> 2.30pm Snorkeling trip
>> After Snorkeling Tea Time
>> 7.00pm - 8.30pm Dinner
>> Night Free at leisure

 DAY 2
>> 8.00am - 9.30am Breakfast
>> 10.00am Snorkeling Trip
>> 12.30pm - 2.00 pm Lunch
>> 2.30pm Snorkeling trip
>> After Snorkeling Tea Time
>> 7.00pm - 8.30pm Dinner
>> Night Free at leisure
 LAST DAY
>> 8.00am - 9.30am Breakfast
>> 9.00am Check out
>> Boarding to mainland 

itinerary for the trip basically snorkeling.
and some leisure you could choose to have.
(:
there's like volleyball court, ping pong, karaoke and congkak i guess lololol.

the resort we're staying : redang holiday villa.
we going down by bus at 1.00am in the morning until reach there is around 5am in the morning.
8.30am / 9.30am boat transfer from Kuala Terengganu - Redang Island.
around 30-45 mins boat ride from Kuala Terengganu - Redang Island.

so, if we took the 8.30am boat ride, reach Redang around 9.15am in the morning for check in and etc.
wish that no raining on that day.
*pray hard*
*finger crossed*
sun tan lotion is a must.
and most of all, swimming suit (:
go for swimming ~







# feels like summer ! although malaysia 4 seasons also summer, but this summer will be different.

money not enough.

SIGH.
money never enough for me.
and i don't know why...
maybe because i'm a big spender/ shopaholic.
since CNY i got angpau of 2k and now left few hundreds only.
suddenly feel like i used too much..

yesterday, i decided to bank in all the hundreds left into my bank account so i won't have money to buy more and more and more bags.
and stuff and shoes and clothes....
too many.. to go on..
i've been spending way too much money again and again..

next time i decided to organized my money properly.
so, whenever i got money, just straight away bank into my bank account so i don't have to spend it all again.
wish my mom and dad would give me money because now, i'm OFFICIALLY broke.
left RM 10 in my wallet and that's all i've right now.
hold onto my shopaholic and stop buying bags.
need it for travel or maybe something else.
like a new bags in the future xDD

talk about money..
= = < this the expression i could give to sei chan.
i've been planning this redang trip on the 5th of May..
and i got my aunty help me to get special price for us and most of all she get some rooms for us.
well, my mom and my dad think the price is very reasonable.
but my friends.
PART OF IT.
like you-know-who.
say that is too expensive..
okay fine, i got over it already.
and i heard that some people said is very expensive and for me, i think is very reasonable enough.
because if you want to go for island during may - june ( school holiday ) this price is the best that i could got.

so i decided to call more people there.
but people thinks it's too expensive for SOME.
and some people scared of TSUNAMI.
omggggggg = =
suddenly i feel like......
don't know how to express it out.
TSUNAMI.
and reason : cannot swim IS NOT A REASON at all.

# for people that thinks it's expensive, sorry i don't know how to say, because that's the cheapest i can get.
and if you want cheap, you either can swim there by yourselves or bring a camp sleep outside.
sooooo much cheaper, that's all i could say now.

asking money from my friends is difficult.
especially CHAN.
last min only give me.
but now, i forced to ask my mom for inter-bank in transfer the money to the account.
it's almost left 90% already.
sigh.
emo.


# how i wish money grows on trees *dreaming*

Friday, April 20, 2012

Working as a tutor.

working as a tutor is a very difficult job.
not really difficult just have to cope with all the kids and children that loves to cry.
well, this story started last month i think.
last month, my class have 7 students.
then one of the week,
i not purposely make the kids cry.

the kids is a very naughty boy.
of course i don't even remember the names.
first, he doesn't do his homework !
and likes to play around.
fool around.
i just ignore him.
but one day, i really can't stand of the boy anymore.
it's really tough to teach a boy that rather roll on the floor than doing his homework.
so i said, who haven't finish homework cannot go home.
he really think it's a big deal.
and started to cry.
omggggggggg.

i'm kinda shocked!
for the following week, he never came.
that was the first and the last time saw him rolling on the floor.

then today, teaching a boy.
math session.
he did wrongly for his maths and i ask him do some correction.
and everyone did theirs.
and finished.
but he's tougher so he need some time.
but everyone prepare to go home while he's the last one to go home so he started to cry.
super scare that he wouldn't come next week.
*finger crossed*
am i tough on them?
because they only standard 1-3
am i too fierce?
but i'm friendly man.
very friendly person.
xDDD

pray hard that the boy don't hate me because i really don't meant to make you cry.
i'm such a failure teacher.
shouldn't be a teacher next time.
2 students cried in a month.
can't believe if i'm continue teaching.
i think my class number will keep on decreasing until ZERO.
omgggggg.
feel so sad.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Life as a host.

Seriously life as a host is horrible.
Just plain annoyed.
We planned a trip to tioman.
Well, it's was okay, and cost around 300 plus.
But they choose a holiday.
As we know holiday is more expensive compare to a normal day.

Talked to them, but well some working, only can take leave during holiday.
That's too bad.
So just leave it.
1st of June, is a school holidays.
Planned that day, but now booking its too late because it's fully booked.
Because its a holiday obviously.

Ok fine, change to 5th of may.
Is a holiday too.
Wesak day.
Well sounds okay to me so I suggested on that day & 7th of may is a holiday for pahang.
Sounds better too.
We even decided to change to redang.
Because most of the tioman's resort is fully booked.

I've a cousin open a resort at redang.
He could get me better price.
And I tried to ask around, here and there.
Called and texted.
Since I know more people and more experienced in planning a holiday.
My job is to call around to ask.

So asking around, calling around, wasted my credits.
That's fine.
Created an event and wrote description.
Obviously people don't read it. Wasting my time write down tons of rubbish.
And nobody even bother.
That's fine, will write it as a status so people will keep updated.

But too bad people busy with work and not much people check their Facebook.
Ok that's fine.
So texted them.
Well, most ridiculous reason that gave is don't know how to swim.
Island got a lot of stuff to do besides swimming okay?!
You will wear life jacket.
You won't drown.
There's lifeguard.

Explained but nobody care.
They even said expensive.
HELLO?!
The cheapest packages I could get while asking around.
Included breakfast, lunch, tea, and dinner. And BBQ dinner too.
Boat transfer.
Snorkeling transfer.
Rooms.
And use of facilities for free.
What u expect more?
For the price of RM440.

If you good enough, why don't you find a cheaper packages than mine.
I will back out.
There's a girl - call Shirley.
She ask me a very funny question.
She asked : why you all have to choose expensive place?
I said : then you tell me which place cheap?
She said : idk.
Very good answer.
Because NO!
Nothin in this world is free.
If u want cheapest, stay home.
Parents paid all for you then.
U go everywhere also need money.

You don't want to go.
I won't force you.
U like it or not.
If you don't want to go, at least tell me what's your opinion?
Parents?
Money?
People?
Suggestion.
Don't like redang just say.
Suggest a place.
Go for a holiday is to enjoy.
We could make something out of it.

If you want cheap packages, book since last year then.
Or during matta fair.
Told u all there's matta fair.
But people think last min booking is possible.
And most of all during holiday you could get a room.
Nobody speak out or saying something.
Trying to get people that SINCERELY wanted to have a holiday.
Not people giving me reason that they can't swim or scare of sunlight.
I would appreciate a lot of that.

Thank for your cooperation people.
I'm just don't like to be a host.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

哭泣

我跟自己说
别在哭了
没用的
只会显得你很爱哭
很烦

没有人会理你
没有人会哄你
哭也没用

哭了也要自己擦干眼泪
哭了也要自己的想办法
哭了也要坚强
因为你要独立的不在依赖着他
因为他已经累了
不在做你的守护天使

而我还是很爱发脾气的大小姐
很霸道的
很爱买包包
得让他顶不顺的时候
再怎么的说都于事无补

我不想吵了
我很累了
我只是想说出我想说的
原来...
我只是这样


Friday, April 6, 2012

heights.

just got very frustrated.
height.
short or tall or intermediate.
but then, if you're tall, why the bloody hell even care people is short.

there's a girl.
V.
annoying bitch.
seriously.
she's tall.
*whole world knows*
she's white.
*whole world knows too*
she's not SNOW WHITE.
and
she has a boyfriend from penang.
whatever i don't even care if she has a son.

the main point here is...
STOP SHOWING OFF THAT YOU'RE TALL.
we're short, so what's your point?
because u have a tall dad and mom.
genetic idiot. read your biology.
that's why she failed her physics and FORCED to change to accountancy.
IN YOUR FACE asshole.

saying she's too tall for asian blah blah blah..
we're asian, accept the fact douchebag.
even american or european some are short too..
and most of all..
she said she's too tall and wearing heels makes her feel even taller because most of her friends are short.
HELLO?! just wear and shut your ugly fat think-so-sexy lips.
and
she said most of the guys in KUANTAN are just short.
WTH.
people with different height.
i bet your boyfriend is almost the same height as you.
and people BORN with different height..
so just live your life.

walk like a duck.
fall as piece of shit.
i know.
acting cute.
so wrong! not cute at all.
and stop playing with your ugly toys.
and stop posting picture of it.
it's so annoying and pissed me off.

but that just a small matters.
BIG MATTERS is stop calling people that shorter than u short.
WHAT THE HELL.
got offended.
even im shorter than u A LOT.
got super offended because you kept on showing off how tall u were.
and i don't like it bitch.
nobody show off their height.

if you're so tall, go be a victoria secret model asshole.
but no ! because u're an LCCT AIRPORT.
no front and no back.
FLAT roti canai.
EVEN I bigger than u lol xD
and look at your eyes..
small like an ants.
and look at your nose,
pig nose.
and most of all look at how you wear.
terrible, fashion big no no.
and thinner than a stick.
maybe you should stick with your own kind.
W_yn__

you both looks so cute together.
and most of all, self confident higher than others.
like north and south, east and west, fat and thin, SHORT AND TALL.
looks great.
hell idiot people around kuantan.
and what so big deal learning so many musical instrument?!
go perform at the hall or something.
idiot.
zzzzzzzzzz

end.
just feel like express it out.