Sunday, March 18, 2012

My first dream travel place

MALDIVES.
It located near to the Indian ocean.
Beach.
Sand.
Sunshine.
Bikini.
And ocean.

I wanted to go there very long time.
planned to have my wedding there xD
*just a dream*
It was a very beautiful place with clear water..
And luxury hotel suites.
And hotel villa on the ocean.
Sounds super cool.

Maybe I could go there one day.
Maybe it would be very soon!
Can do some snorkeling..
Swimming..
Tanning..
Great stuff..
Relaxing..

Just these few days kinda bored.
So post some travel place because it's tooooooo pretty.
Can't resist!
Hehe :D

Saturday, March 17, 2012

最近

最近的我,无聊地做些有的没的
最近的我,做起了家务
最近的我,独自地吃早餐
最近的我,好想好想时间过的快
不过如此

等待变成了习惯
等待6点的来临已经不是我期待的
我最期待的是如何过完一天
漫长的,无聊的,无所事事的一天

没有他的日子
真的很无聊
独自的跑步
吃早餐
过后就瘫痪的做在电脑玩tetris battle
看下电视剧

就这样的过了一天
想要过快点就睡个午觉
好希望时间过得快点
虽然这样的生活很秃废
也不过如此

好希望大声的说 我不喜欢这样的生活节奏
不过 我又能怎么样呢?
他依然的做工
我依然的无所事事
他依然的跟他朋友一起嘻嘻哈哈
我依然的独自面对家里问题
他依然的迟放工
我依然的等待电话里的讯息

好不容易的等到了
他要吃晚餐
他要冲凉
他要看电视剧
而我呢,
要去教补习
教到10点了
他明天又要很早的去做工
要早休息

想聊天的时间都没有
最多闲话
长时间的深入话题就没有了
发生了很多事
不是一个讯息就可以解决

他不做工也不行
没钱,
他如何买他心爱的手机
他如何陪我去旅行
看戏
做很多东西

伤心又如何
想他不做又不可以
我还是慢慢地等待漫长的一天一天的过去
他说过叫我不要恨他,讨厌他,生气他 因为这份工很快的就要做完
但是他才刚开始
我也没问几时做完,因为我不想知道,也不想了解
我没恨他,生气他或讨厌他
只好接受和等待

我真的很想的说 你可以不要做了吗?!
但是还是算了
剩下的时间就要好好地聊天,关心下他
他每天很累的做工就应该放松心情
不是要跟我吵这个问题

我,就好好地吃,喝,睡吧!







Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Making decision..

Making a decision is hard man.
Well, it's almost end of my study...
And I still struggling to get what I want..

Most of all, at the very first place!
My mom & dad should not ever let me enter form 6.
Told them so but never listen...
Foundation or something else private college..

Secondly, what to do?
Yeah, told them 2 years ago wanted to be a dentist..
They never listen.
Conclusion : parents never listen.

Thirdly, decision.
Still will be a dentist.
And yeah, people will just ask me give up or find a new course..
No!
Although I can't enter IMU, expensive private university..
But still I will find my ways and get into a dentistry college or university.
Final : dentist.
No giving up.

Fourthly, applying.
Will still apply local, just to make my parents happy since they wanted me to do it so badly.
And will try to go the educational fair at KL on the 24 & 25th or march if I'm not mistaken.
Saw it on TV.

Well, might study a fast track foundation..
But will just are about it later on.
No applying some shit scholarship.
No applying prestiges university in Malaysia.
Nor overseas.
Just want to get into the course I want.
End of story.

Last, hunting.
Hunting for info and experience from seniors.
Hope to hear some good news.

*headache*
*pray hard*
*finger crossed*

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Stay stronger.

Okay, today is about future.
Yesterday, went to Irene house for her talk about applying university and choosing courses.

She recommended wood/environment.
I'm kinda interested in wood because as for somebody who don't know...
My dad is doing WOOD and some WOOD TRUNK.
Yeah..
And as like Irene said, earn quite a lot..
And like daughter and dad could build up a very good company..

As for me.
Sounds kinda cool.
Might try it and decided got home told my dad..
But no.
Went to TAJ around 12 am in the morning..
And chat until 2.15am in the morning.
With see yong, bao shian, pik kuan and lay wan.
We chatted about teacher experience and teaching..
And most of all, see yong hurt his finger..
And swelling like a balloon.
It looks super hurtful.

The next day, told my dad about it..
And well, thought about it, my dad would give me his company if I study wood.
But somehow dad said no.

Wood, is tree.
Will be cut off one day.
No matter how long u replant.
U want a very good wood, you need to wait a very long time.
Dad said, is not a very good secure future of you study in wood.
Mostly, my dad didn't really enter UNI just to learn to identify wood.
Just based on his experience..
And later on, end up to be a business man or women..

Dad never wants me to be in business.
Mostly experience.
Don't have to enter UNI to study business..
If your parents are rich enough to let u study business in private college.
If not, basically you don't have to study business so expensive in private college or UNI.

Let's talk about others.
I heard my friend she got 3.80..
She wanted to study business.
For me, I think is kinda wasted.
For me, I think if u capable in studying, just try on accountancy.
Very good paid.
And you could earn a lot if you work in the bank.
Even my dad paid for few thousand for an accountant to just sort his fail and counted his stuff.
Don't have to work like overtime or something.
Is good.
But some just don't really understand..
Wish to tell them that u should choose wisely.

As for him,
He chosen real estate.
Good - point of my dad.
And good - point of view of mine.
Selling and buying property, houses, shop lots..
Lots more to encounter.
I'm glad and fully support of his choices.

Emm, I guess that's all I got the info for.
(:

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Unspoken.

Result is finally reveal.
It was okay from the beginning.
Heard bao Shian said I passed my chemistry with a C.
And I really think is a big achievement because I never pass my chemistry before.

But the slowly, saw datin genga.
She walked by and I saw my result.
C+ was okay to me because I usually don't pass my biology lots of time.

Then PA, whole class passed.
I'm happy about it.
3 passes !
And last but not least, maths.

I don't dare to see maths because I heard quite a lot of people fail.
So decided don't ask first.
Maybe I got a pass or something.

But when teacher distributed our result..
I saw a F at the mathematics T column.
I was like hang for awhile.
I don't know what to respond.
All I could is hold on the news.

I couldn't believe my eyes.
I never got a fail in my life in such an important exam.
But then..
I still go on with it.
Thinking how to tell my dad about it.

SMS or call him?
Struggled.
At last, before I went home.
I texted him.
He said my result is not a result at all.
I felt hurt for a moment.
Hold back and clear my brain.
Thinking what to reply him.

But I just feel like replying everything in my brain.
So I decided replied everything.
Said whatever I feel like saying..
Do whatever I feel like doing...

Just wrote whatever I feel.
For me, just feel that dad never proud of me.
I never have good result.
Compare to my sister, she's clever than me.
Got full A's in UPSR and PMR.

I still think that she would get full A for SPM too.
Well, compare to me as a big sister, I feel a bit down.
Relatives, cousins are happy with her result compare to mine.
People with good result, never understand this feeling.
Dating is not causing this result.
I told myself : I tried my best.
All I could say now.
I really tried my best and this is the result I got.

Dad just pulls me down.
All my confident is down.
But then, I still wanted to persue my dream as a dentist.
Form 6 is over.
I could say is I finish my foundation.
Now let's headed to degree.

Forget about the past.
And start to find some private UNI to get a new life.
Like my dad said in the last message : it's not end of the world, start to think the next step/ courses going to be.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Result day.. is coming...

tomorrow.. 7th of march..
will be entering the school hall as usual..
taking my STPM result..
this result is the most scariest result ever compare to previous like SPM or PMR.

i don't know what my result will be.
i just wish i didn't fail either of it..
because it will be very sad if i fail one of it..

parents especially my dad asked me what do u think of my result..
he expect me to get 3.80!
how could i get 3.80..
ridiculous..
if got higher than 2.00 i'm super glad..

before this i don't really scare or worrying about my result but everyone posting result on facebook or twitter..
i started to get worry worry and worry..
oh shit.
tomorrow..
i don't feel like going to school really..
but everyone is going to take..
what am i suppose to do??

i don't want to face..
hope today never ends.
i don't have to see my result..
teachers..
parents..
friends..

i feel like crying..
not even get my result yet..
i don't know what my future will be..
what am i going to be..
or what am i gonna react?

should i stay strong?
positive?
i don't know..
i just don't want to do anything else..

*finger crossed*
i'm freaking out..
tonight won't be sleeping i guess..
insomnia.

Leehom 'MUSIC-MAN II' live in KUALA LUMPUR

3rd of march !
stadium merdeka !
rocking the whole night long !

it was the most awesome concert ever !
well, i sat quite behind thou. very behind..
and i only can see leehom as small as an ant.
so...
but his songs, voice and effects are damn great !

he did some cool remix like acapella.
so sweet sweet sweet..

the costume and everything is great !
like great great !
but....
rain whole night long..
he even played piano in the rain..
looks so romantic..
he said he came here to take a bath xDD

(:
let picture do the talking.
and some videos about the remix.




 crowd crowd and crowd !
crowded ! full xD
we were like shocked to see that many people in the stadium just to see leehom.

 his treble clef !
pretty !



 fans from singapore ! tons of people.
from korea, taiwan, las vegas.. and few others.




 chiew ee and her brother.




the animation is so cute !
but it kinda moving.. the fans was like busy shouting lol

the opening of the concert ! the opening is the best part of everything !

he posted this video on his weibo and it's live !
cool.

this is the best picture of everyone picture i took..
most of it is leehom face la nothing much.
hahaha since i sat quite far.
so leehom is very very tiny tiny tiny.

his love to everyone !
<3

he and his piano.. the piano is pretty ! 
singing all those love and romantic songs with his pianoooooo (:

the nearest i could capture him when he walk the whole stadium..
yeah fans are super crazy !
and it's raining man..
crazyyyy fans !
i'm not that crazy..
maybe i'm getting older and older and older.
old.

but he's hot !

the concert ended very nice !
especially the ending he walked back is the most handsome part !

after the concert, went back the hotel around 12am...
thank god my dad booked the nearest hotel if not...
i need to get back around 3am in the morning man !
(:

the concert is like a dream..
i dream a dream.
sound unreal and most of all..
it was very very sudden !
wish to go back to the concert again !

next time, i must get the VVIP seat man..
i need to see him !
like real near.

and going KBOX to sing all his songs !
every single one of his songs !