not over.

I miss the time.
Where we cried.
We sang.
We ate.
We drank.
We smiled.
We poking.
I want this to stay forever.
I miss.

I'm getting what u trying to say.
I accepted it.
I thought of it.
I felt it.
This is the moment.
U don't like who am I.
I don't really mind.

Well.
School.
New professor is born.
Professor darick tan jia wang/pengawas.
Future pengawas.
He bought a coupon for smart niaga.
And he doesn't wanna attend.
And he sells to others.
Nobody wanna buy.
So, he started to lecture.
He said nowadays dai yi long and last time is different.
Last time dai yi long wanna escape from caught by police.
They invest in other business area.
Like we saw in the movie.
And he said nowadays dai yi long.
Very kiam siap.
I guess.
Bao shian asked him: for example?
He said like me cannot sell my coupon off.
And say we ( dai yi long ) force him to a dead end.
Hahaha.
Hahaha.
The whole thing was mentioning us.

Funny!
Funny!
And today saw jeanne and chee yik on their way to the ochestra room.
They complained about choir.
And they asked us to make a huge bowl of kwok fa char for them tmrw.
To clear their throat or something.
Haha!
Funny the way they say.
Stop.
Rewind.
Play.
Stop.
Rewind.
Play.
Pause.
Just like astro remote control.
Curse the people who taught them sing.
*tears* haha.

Funny classmates.
Bonded.
Will maintain it.
: )
Love my classmates.

Craps.
Peace.
Funny!

forgotten.

today.
math teacher.
full name : mrs tan jin ooi.
well.
annoyed.
her class was boring.
i don't mind.
and i discussing what to wear tmrw.
and she.
asked me keep quiet.
bloody hell.
bitch.
like we're not like chit chatting.
discussing !
u can still teach because i don't even understand a single word she said.
her voice is soft like a ants.
and lullaby.
please.
please.
ask me to keep quiet.
GRRRRRR...!

and besides that.
she even ask other to pay attention.
well.
everyone is almost sleeping.
and u supposed us to pay attention to listen what are u crapping.
she seems beh song us.
well beh song then.
it's not like i even care!
*urggh*

and sorry to chen bao shian.
this is me.
well.
sorry i know u want to listen to teacher.
u can ignore what i said.
i'm usually that way.
not the first day know me.
xD

craps.
peace.

great day.

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well today is a great day.
happy as always.
crazy as always.
laughter all around.
laughing.
smiling.
no emo.
xD
lots of jokes.
lots of funny movement.
lots of funny topic.
and i remember the 100 plus !
ka-ka-ka-ka.

well again.
today i'm happy.
thanks for caring people : )
i'm alright now.
can run like a leopard xD
cannot say i can fly.
because dai lou asked me to fly = ='
just a metaphor = ='
he said me slowwwwwwwww.
grrrrr.

jokes jokes : )
hope he doesn't beh song me.
: )

OKAY
lastly.
again.
blisssss

hesitated.

every hello ends with a goodbye.
every rose has its thorn.
every night has it dawn.
every beginning will end.
every zero end with infinity.
every fairytales end with happy ever after.
every on button end with off button.

i hesitated whether i should talk about it.
i kept it long enough.
well.
i need help.
i must make clear about something.

like a knife cuts through wound heals
but the scare still remain.
i'll find somebody to talk about it.

craps.
peace.

inspired by this lyrics.

miley cyrus
Stay.

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight

I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Oh, ho, I miss you
Oh, ho, I need you

And I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home
I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay

Well I try to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God, I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say

Oh, ho, I miss you
Oh, ho, I need you

I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay

I will stay
Always stay
I never want to lose you
And if I had to, I would choose you
So stay
Please always stay
You're the one that I hold on to
Cause my heart would stop without you

I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay
I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask, I will stay
I will stay
I will stay

stucked.

Starting with a day.
Sunday.
Day to relax.
At first,
Thought of going st john activities.
Well.
Something happened.
So I skipped.

Woke up at 9am.
Received a call.
A very important call.
*ring ring*
I picked up.
And heard something shocked.
Well.
Nothing special actually.
Just some problems.
And went back to sleep.

10am.
Woke up again.
I can't feel my leg.
So I went to the clinic.
Doctor greeted me : welcome back.
Me : yea, back.
Doctor : how are u?
Me : not so fine.
Doctor : still the old problem huh.
Me : yeap.
Doctor : let me check.
*checking*
Doctor : oh well. The problem again.
Me : yeap, can u just give me an injection or something?
Doctor : yeap.
*injection preparing*
Doctor : okay. Relax.
Me : okay.
( The injection was injected )
Well.
Its not as tough as I thought.
Immuned to injection.
Doctor : done. U can go outside and wait. Take your medicine.
Me : okay thanks doc.
Doctor : u'll be back soon.
Me : oh. Yeah.
*door closed*

Waiting to get my medicine.
Somebody called.
Baoshian.
Well.
She called : what your i/c number for the last 4 number?
Me : xxxx.
She : okay.
*phone hang up*
Again.
I drove home myself.
I think I'm independent already.
xD
No parents company.
Okay, they went outstation.
Driving was dangerous this morning.
Dangerous.

I've to skip biology presentation preparation at see yong's hse.
Skip jiayin's b'day party.
Skip guitar class.
Skip tea time with kee hong cheng and bao shian.

I'm freaked out.
I'm scared sometimes.
Its not normal for me.
Unusual.
Critical.

Craps.
Peace.

dots.

Dots.
Dots.
Dots.
Dots.
AGAIN had been thinking.
A lot of thing.

Problem.
Problem.
I over trust a person too much.
Trust people too easily.
When bad time comes,
I get it.
It all because of me.
Myself.
Stupid of me.
Urgh.

Well.
Over trust a person
Get me into big trouble.
Really big.
And I think.
I'm over willing to help a person.
Over willing.
That's is my bad personality.
Hard to change.
Time will prove it.

Trial is over.
Well.
I think it kinda suck.
Especially the oral part.
Well.
Bad in singing.
Bad in hearing.
Bad in intepreting.
Others were okay I guess.
Ha!
Its over.
The real is coming soon.
*sigh*

Craps.
Peace.

frustrated.

Friday.
Again.
A day is over.
Well.
Thinking again.
Done math T h/w.

Heard mom and dad's conversation.
Mom was busy today.
Very busy.
Dad just came back from somewhere.
And scolded me that I scratch my car again.
I DIDN'T !
I SWEAR.
Somebody scratch it.
He scolded me for something I didn't done.
Sad.

They wanted to cut down many expenses.
1st of all.
Guitar is going to be sacrifise.
I miss guitar.
Well, I've no choice.
2ndly.
No more travelling.
3rdly.
No more shopping.
*sigh*
And other expenses.
*sigh*

Well dad said it's for me for future.
University.
Expenses.
Sister's.
A lot of things.
I wish my problem gonna solve then next morning when I'm awake.
But.
I think it won't.
I wish I can spend like a celebrities.
Don't even look at the price.
And do not worry about money.
Well.
Too bad.
Not gonna happen.

Well.
Singing class my voice to turn into boy.
It's so bass.
Hahaha.
Gosh!
Sunday.
Again.
Need to wake up early.
To join st john thingy.
*sigh*
Busy day ahead.

Craps.
Peace.
*sigh*

thursday.

Today was the most busiest day ever.
Start with the koloqium.
Well group with catherine, baoshian and keeboon.
Each of them.
Pro!
And me.
Lame.
Well.
This is the first time group with them.
Felt kinda weird but at the same time happy.
Because pros are here for the rescue.
Haven't think of any topics to present yet.
Today bao and cat have their topics.
And I've no topics.
Felt so lame.
Can't think of any topics.
Well.
I would like to do something rather than being a flower pot.

Today had my oral class.
Singing class.
Suck.
Out of tune.
I can't even get the right note to sing.
And critisize by teacher somemore.
*sigh*
Booo to me.
I'm the worst singer in the world.
I can't hear what teacher was playing.
Confused.
Hesitated.

Joined saint john ambulance.
Well.
Activities.
A.
Lot.
I chosen this should bare with it then.
T shirt cost rm 15.
Uniform cost rm 67.
The badges cost rm 53.90 *i guess*
Pants get it from mom.

Tuition class.
Alone as usual.
Doing math alone.
With confused.
Lots of confused.
But some I understood.

Why the doctor doesn't just give me prescription on antibiotic?
I'm in pain.
Pain.
Pain.
I need antibiotic desperately.
Antibiotic, where are u?
Suffering.

Having serious sore throat.
I need strepsils.
Or fisherman.
I want the sore throat to go away.
Go away!
I need to go for exam.
Bad timing to get a sore throat.

Listening to my ipod whole day long.
Musics.
Rhythm.
Melodies.
Lyrics.
Sound.
Keeps me awake.
Makes my day happy.

I hate math T.
The teacher is super duper extremely boring.
I can't even stay awake during her class.
Gosh!
Does she needs to be so soft and hypnotising?
*yawn*
*yawn*
I really need somebody to kill her for me.
xD

July is coming soon.
Yay!
Eclipse.
Excited for the movie.
Not the people.

My car is gonna burn by the sun every thurs.
Thanks to our inconsiderate teachers.
Sad for the car.
= (

Craps.
Peace.

thinking.

Back from school.
Had been thinking whole day.
What is going on in daily life.
I'm don't feel like talking.
Just wanna listen.
Sing.
Verbalise.
Mumbling.
Everything.
I still can't the solution.

Start from the morning.
Ochestra was nice but still bored.
Getting very sleepy.
Sleepy.
No feel like talking.
Worried about trial.
I really sucks.
Teacher just pull down my confident indirectly.

Jiayi told me don't worry.
Urrgh how can I not worry.
Serious.
I need to get somebody to talk to.

There's a problem I can't stand of.
What's wrong with eating and play badminton?!
Like seriously.
Being so over the top.
Just wanna get some fun.
I just don't get it.
Ridiculous.
Give a lot of excuses.
Not the 1st time.
Urgh.
Forget about it then.
Nothing I can say.

Craps.
Peace.

bad day.

I hate today.
22nd of june.
Bad day.
Bad timing.
Bad hairday.
Everything is bad.

Well, today.
Had my presentation on the book review.
I'm nervous.
And ended up.
Verbalise something I dunno.
Craps most of all.
Even bao shian doesn't know what I'm presenting.
Well bad I can said.
Skip most of the story.
ATLEAST I can answer question that asked by friends and teacher.
That's a relief. Somehow.
And comments by teacher.
Well, she said I'd a bad prounonsation and not clear. *sorry for wrong word*
Urgh. Nobody ever comment that my english is bad before.
Well first fall.
2ndly, she said my words in the slide ATTACKED the audience.
ATTACKED. Shocked when I heard it.
And the words make her dizzy.
Well her probs though.
ANOTHER fall.
Lastly, she asked me to brush up my tongue. Bad english.
FALL AGAIN.
Devastated.
Sad.
Dissapointed.
Down.
Well will try better next time. Without nervousness.

School going smoothly.
Just somebody.
Being so immature.
And I've nothing to say about that.
Over reacted.
Attention desperado.
Well.
None of my business anyway.
Just write to express.

Just wondering why people have to act so different when they're alone and when they're with friends?
Just be yourself.
There's nothing to be different from who you're.
I just can't stand the attitude.
Being so different.
Urgh.
Stop it humans.
*sigh*
Forget about it.
Craps.

Another arrow shooted by piano teacher.
My first song was great. BUT lack of romantic feeling.
Urgh. How should I play romantic song when I'm single and NOT IN LOVE.
She given me a tough mission.
Feeling.
I will find it soon.
2nd song.
Urgh.
Again.
Was satisfied but it was not until her level.
Fast.
Steady.
With dynamics.
Strong accent.
Finger practising chords.
Again.
Will try to train it as fast as possible.
3rd song.
That's the worst.
I can't even get the note right.
I practised it every single day.
And teacher said it was the worst song she ever heard.
URGH.
I'm dissapointed.
I've no confident to exam anymore.

I suck.
In everything.
Down.
Down.
Down.
*sigh*

Math T today at school.
Is the most sleepiest class ever.
I can't even open my eyes during the class.
I can't get anything the teacher said.
Not even a single word.
Weak to hold a pen.
Pressing the pen on the paper is the most tiring thing.
Sleep is not allowed.
Well everyone was writing.
Scribble scribble.
And only me.
In the class.
Staring at the infinity sight.
Trying to stay awake.
Oh god.
Save me.

Again.
Tuition class.
Was.
OmG.
The equations were complicated.
And I can opened mouth as big as possible.
Well.
Complicated.
As usual.
Math.
I reached there earlier and teacher haven't come.
I walked down the car.
And walked to the crowd.
And I saw my friends.
And I don't feel like walking near them.
Not that I hate them.
Well.
I ended up staying alone near the shop.
As if I'm like in the assorted island alone.
Used to it.
Too many falls for me today.
Teacher came.
Walk up to the class.
And I sit alone.
Other friends haven't arrived.
Well.
Saw everyone was chatting and laughing.
Only me.
Sitting there.
Dreaming.
Haha.
My friend abondened me and sit with other friends.
The whole row is only me.
*sigh*
Finally.
My friends came.
Still not much talking or laughing.
Well.
Quiet all the time.
Until finished class.
I was the 3rd person leave the class.
Drove to 7-11 to get something to chew.
Suddenly feel like I'm homeless.
Forget about it.
Used to it.
Thinked of it.
Intepreted it.
Sent it.
Reflexed it.

School.
Have a great chat with baoshian.
We shared.
We laughed.
We sat.
We thought.
I know how she feels and she knows what I'm talking about.
And she hide many secrets from me.
Haha. Don't blame her for it.
Sometimes just need somebody to talk to.
Real talk.

Everyone has their problem.
Problem may differ.
But.
When u speak out.
It feel much more better.
But.
Not all.
Still kept some for little secrets.
For sake.

Craps.
However.
Day still need to go on.
Earth still spining.
The sun still shining.
The sky still as blue as usual.
The moon still appear at night.
The road still the same.
The scene is old.
The people still the same.
Life.
Still surviving.
Every breath I breathe.
Until my heart stop beating.
That's where day doesn't need to go on.
But still a long way to go.
I will wait.

Craps.
Peace.

emo.

suddenly i felt so emo.
emo.
emo.
emo.
emo.
emo.
my sis got her exam result.
and she got 80 for her BM.
and she told my mom.
my mom said : no good!
sis : only got 6 people got A ler.
mom : u ask jie see good anot.
me : whoa very good ! get A ler. pandai betul.
sis : see. and my science got 74.
me : well very bad no good !
sis stare with anger.
haha = )

just now.
mom.
was.
saying.
mom : now u grown up already never hear what i said already. last time when u're small, u always listen to me and i ask u do A u never do B. now i ask u do A u wanna do C.
me : last time small stupid mar. now already become clever.
mom : clever? where got clever?
me : got lar. clever enough to drive around count clever. xD
mom : *speechless* clever but silly and MCC.
me : ya lor. like daughter like mother mar. xD
HAHAHA.

finally done my homework.
all i can say is i love to do biology notes.
and math T TUITION homework but not school.
tomorrow.
school.
bored.
teachers.
chair.
table.
spinning fans.
and tomorrow is my presentation day !
god ! i hope i don't screw it up.
pray hard.

craps.
peace.

school.

After 2 weeks of holiday,
Today officially back to school.
Nothing special.
Teachers.
Students.
Classroom.
Office.
Sky.
Today raining.
And cold.

School was different today.
Newcomers.
Back from ns camp.
Shirley.
Xin yin.
Uthaya.
Lay wan.
Joann.
Chiew ee.
Well my class people increased.
2 more boys. 5 girls.
Boys look nerdy.
Girls accpetable. Because all is my friend : )
Biology class.
Have presentation.
We were the 1st group.
About osmosis.
Like usual.
I standing behind bao to tell her the appropriate word incase she doesn't remember.
Presentation was funny.
And teacher said : well done. Good presentation.
Bliss for awhile.
And teacher keeps on ask question.
And suddenly she shouted my name : Olivia. Please answer the question.
I looked at her with shocked.
And bao told me the answer.
But still can't answer. Haha!

Mathematics.
Walked to the destination.
And wanted to walk into the class.
Shocked.
Somebody in the lab.
Well is physics class student.
And of course saw my friends.
LOL so we gossip outside the classroom while waiting for them to finish what they doing.
Few shocking story were told.
Shocked.
Shocked.
Shocked.
Hahaha.
Knowing too many gossip.
xD
Laugh.

Okay. Recess.
As usual meeting at the account class.
Well, the class always full of humans.
Haha!
One accident happened.
Haha.
Bao shian.
Done.
Something.
I don't think she wants me to write.
Okay forget about it.

Chemistry class.
Teacher lost.
No teacher.
Done my math t tuition h/w.
And take a nap on the table.
And slept for half an hour I guess.
Whoa.
But still when PA class.
*yawn* *eyes closing soon*
*yawn*
Hold on. Hold on. Don't sleep first.
And keep on look at the watch.
Time is so slow.
And muet!
Finally.
I survived.
no presentation.
Doing some work in the workbook.
Well, still bored.
So started to chat with baoshian and awaiting unti 230pm.

When the clock strike 230pm.
Whoa.
Felt so energetic.
Haha.
I'm fully awake.
Kept my things like a bullet train.
*shoosh*
Done. Things kept and headed to canteen to wait for friend.
And they haven't come out yet.
Well.
Waited waited and waited.
While waiting.
Saw tiong.
He said : I thought u drive home?
Me : waiting for friend.
He : physics class.
Me : yes.
He : kien joe?
Me : no. Kien joe at china ler.
Bao : wanna wait him for 3 days.
HAHAHA.
Me : u wait for kien joe izzit?
He : no lar.
Me : know la u waiting for him.
He : no lar. Waiting for his gift only.
Me : oh. U can wait him here by set camp.
He : then in the camp u should put a bed.
Me : why?
He : cos I wanna sleep lur.
Bao : aiyo, why u so yim chim. Simply sleep la.
Hahahaha.
Some conversation I forgot jor.
Sorry. Alzheimer.

Back home.
sitting in the corner.
Listening to ipod.
Craps.
Peace.

part 2.

Continue of part 1.
Well part 2.
Here we are.

Father's day.
Brought dad out for dinner.
Well I thought we're going to eat at eastgrill or cherating or maybe sherwood.
And ended up a place called laguna restaurant.
I drove from my house to that restaurant.
Gosh.
Driving was slow.
Parents in the car.
Forced to drive slow.
Well, bored during the driving.
And mom pops out a question.
She asked me.
Mom : well, going back to school huh?
Me: yes. Why ask?
Mom : many ns people is going right?
Me : not really.
Mom : then where are them heading?
Me : college?
Mom : oh college. Parents rich can afford them to college.
Me : ya. Jealous.
Mom : why wanna jealous?
Me : because they've rich parents. Not like my parents. Stingy.
Mom : my money don't grow on the tree or fall from the sky. U can wish or pray hard that I strike lottery and I can send u overseas.
Me : yea right. U don't even buy lottery.
Mom : u can pray grandma/grandpa let me dream few numbers and I go buy.
Me : so lame.
Mom : what lame? U don't even know how hard I earn those money. All my 'sweat money'.
Me : please. U sitting in a office with aircorn since when u sweat before.
Mom : just a example. U always complain tired. Not like me need to work and wash all your clothes.
Me : eh, you come my school and study f6 lar, u try read see lar. Complain only.
Mom : you always complain. The complain queen.
Me : like mother like daughter. Inherited by your genes like to complain.
Mom : last time I never complain.
Me : of course u never complain. U study last class. Some more can skip f6 go canada study. If I were u, I also nothing to complain.
Mom : ya lar ya lar. Like to argue with me.
Me : u pick up the question to argue 1st okay?
Mom : *speechless* pay attention while driving.
Me : u talk to me 1st.
*radio switched on*
* shorty is a eenie meenie miny molover *
Dad : who sang this song?
Me : justin bieber feat sean kingston.
Dad : nice song huh.
Me : dunno.
* quiet *

Reached.
*engine off*
*light off*
*go down from the car*
*click*
*door looked*

Walk inside.
Food all are like stranger to me.
Indonesian's food.
Whao. Great - -"
Looked at the menu and blur for a moment.
Asked the waitress.
Me : apa u boleh recomment?
Waitress : atas menu tu ada nasi macam nasi goreng.
Me : oh ok. Ambil tu satu.
Waitress : nanti.
Me : *stare*
Waitress : sorry, nasi tu dah habis.
Me : oh. Okay I tengok dulu.
I was thinking.
Well this waitress is so bad.
Doesn't even know the food was finished.
And order a rice with something creepy and MILKSHAKE :)
Well, MILKSHAKE rock! But the rice was.. Eww!
I started to complain.
Me : who the hell wanna come here and eat?
Mom : dad ask us to come.
Me : *paiseh* oh.
Mom : this place was on newspaper.
Me : seriously?!
Mom : yes. Quite many people came here before.
Me : well who are them?
Mom : I dunno.
Me : then u said many people and u said u dunno who.
Mom : just try then. If not so nice, next time don't come.
Me : next time u kill me I also won't come again.
Mom : I know u only like macdonald.
Me : yea. Fast and efficient. And food is available all the time even until midnight.
Mom : *speechless*

Then a few minute passed.
Mom : do u wish dad happy father's day?
Me : yes.
Sister : yes.
Mom : really?
Me and sister : really!
Me : then how you wish your dad happy father's day?
Mom : my dad passed away.
Me : well, pray to him.
Mom : no need.
Me : then how abour your husband? What do u get for him?
Mom : nothing.
Me : your husband wor. Get nothing for him. What a wife are u.
Mom : that's your 'old bean'.
Me : so what? U choosen him as your husband. Not me. I don't choose my dad. If I can choose, I already choose bill gates as my dad.
Mom : he still your dad.
Me : I know. Never said not my dad.
Mom : *speechless* *playing with her cellphone*

A few minutes passed.
Mom : now a days children go out with parents always play with cellphone.
Me : because nothing to talk to their parents.
Mom : talk about school, work or something funny.
Me : not even a single kids wanna talk about school. Work? Stress. Something funny but parents don't laugh at all. No point talking.
Mom : well that's too bad.
Me : yes. Too bad.

Finished dinner.
Then outside was raining.
*thrum thrum* thunder striked.
Rain was pouring.
*di di da da*
Listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain.
Rested after finished the dinner.
Mom started to talk.
Mom : raining outside. How we suppose to go into the car?
Me : there's something we called umbrella. Or we still can rushed into the car. What so difficult?
Mom : was wondering the rain will stop anot.
Dad started to speak.
Dad : will stop but just dunno will when only.
Mom : just wondering when.
Dad : this rain awhile only.
Mom : if didn't stop?
Dad : which rain didn't stop before?
Mom : how I know.
Dad : if rain didn't stop you gonna stay here until the rain stop?
Mom : no lar. Just wondering.
Dad : if the rain didn't stop for 3 days then u no need to home lar.
*everyone bursted into laughter*
HAHAHA.
Mom was speechless.
and said : today very hot.
Me : ya lar. Now u know hot.
Sister : mom take a nap until suddenly said hot.
Mom : ya lar, today weather hot until I can sweat the whole face.
Me : I thought u like hot? Now hot u complain. ( Mom hates cold )
Mom : this hot is extreme.
Me : suit u lar.
Dad shake his head. HAHAHA
Then I rushed to the car to start the engine and drive to the OKU parking place to pick my parents.
Well my sister said,
Sis : jie since when u're OKU?
Me : no lar. I'm not OKU. You the one is OKU.
Sis : when I'm OKU?
Me : now.
Sis : why now?
Me : I chop your hand and leg then u can become OKU.
Sis : *speechless*

Drove back home.
Safely.
Slowly.
Boring.

End of part 2.
Craps.
Peace.

part 1.

20th of june.
Father's day.
Went to mall with dai lou and Jia yin.
Well.
When reached there, *ting ting ting* text message.
From bao : I haven't bought uhu and pins. I haven't get big head pins. Can u help me buy?
I replied : K.
And walked to the bookstore.
Get 2 packs of big head pins.
And walked back to the cinema.
Dai lou haven't come.
First time, I waited for him.
Usually he waited for us all. ( Sorry dai lou )
Finally, saw him walk toward us.
Wearing white. LOL
What a opposite colour with me - -"
And we started to chat awhile.
And I walked to get popcorn.
POPCORN time ! Yay !
Haha.

In the cinema.
Offered dai lou.
He don't want.
Sad ( not really sad ).
Offered jia yin.
She doesn't want.
Well forget about it.
More for me ! xD
The movie : prince of persia.
Overall is okay.
Just few part kinda bored.
Well, stalk jia yin, dai lou, eating popcorn and alsmot felt asleep.
Movie finished.

Headed for kbox.
Haha! Of course. Small room.
And dai lou sang.
Wao ! Pretended.
He really can sing.
Force him to sing louder.
And refused.
Haha, but nevermind. I can hear every word he sang.
xDDD
Gagagagagaga.
Finished.

Walk down and walk up.
Nowhere to head to.
Finally walk to the game place.
Thought to take picture.
Then the machine is under maintanance.
That was fast under maintanance. *shocked*
Well ended up play the racing game.
Haha got no.2 well, kinda proud. xD

Then outside saw 2 people.
One is my friend ah ying. Well she looks mature and make up with heels. Grown up so fast. And I'm sad that I still haven't in my heels. LOL
2ndly is my cousin sister.
Well she brought 2 little monsters.
She asked : out for movie?
Me : yes. With friends.
She : your boyfriend?
Me : no. Friends.
She : are u sure?
Me : yes.
She : wha become pretty already. Never make up?
Me : never. Kinda lazy. Take time.
She : oh.
2 little monsters started to talk.
Min : olivia jie jie got boyfriend ar?
Me : no. Friends.
Min : got boyfriend. Yiiyer!
Me : - -" no comment. Friends only.
My cousin sister said : ok, u go with your friend. Bye
Me : bye.
And back to my friend.
And decided to shop.
Well, shop at the sport shop.
U can said jia yin shops only.
We were waiting for her.
Haha. And chat.
And walk walk walk.
Ground floor.
She went into adidas shop.
We sitted at the chair.
Waiting. Haha.
And finally decided to eat.
And dai lou and jia yin's conversation is funny!
Haha.
Well, we walked to the ms veg and jiayin changed her mind.
And turned back saw dai lou.
Going to buy bread at the rotiboy.
LOL and we followed.
And finally decided not to eat.
And went back home.
Of course I'm driving. - -"

And end of part 1.
Craps.
Peace.

morning.

20th of june.
My 17th time of father's day since I was born.
Well, nothing special.
Dad still sleeping when I'm out.
Well, I haven't wish him happy father's day.
I'll text him then : X
This is what we call the magic of communication.

I'm going to stop guitar soon.
T T
This is not I want.
I wanna continue.
I'm sad.
Devastated.
I simply just love guitar.
But due to expenses.
I have to stop.
Stop.
Everytime I walked pass by a instrument shop,
Reality that I'm gonna stop soon.
No point I gonna buy a new one.
I'm gonna stop a lot of thing now.
Expenses.
Well, I asked before my twin's suggestion.
He said : u know what to do.
Well.
Well.
Well.
*sigh*

off to guitar class.
Crap.
Peace.

outing.

Back from outside.
The tall skyscrapper.
The buildings.
The blocks.
The bricks.
The road.
The traffic lights.
The sky.
The moon.
And the stars.
Back to my home sweet home.
Dad was waiting at me at the living room.
Watching golf channel. *bored*
Suddenly, my sister walked down the stairs. *pom pom pom*
And shouted : jie where is my cellphone?
And shouted back : in my bags and I'm not deaf.
And dad started to question me where I'd been.
Dad : where u gone just now?
Me : out.
Dad : I know u're out. There is no place besides out. Cannot be in.
Me : well, with friends.
Dad : hey stop answering me a stupid answer. I know with friends. U won't go out with strangers.
Me : okay out yamchar.
Dad : where?
Me : oldtown.
Dad : stay at oldtown for so long?
Me : yup. And went to friend's hse.
Dad : which friend?
Me : u dunno.
Dad : where
is her hse?
Me : somewhere near semambu.
Dad : why you go her house?
Me : celebration.
Dad : oh. U know what time now?
Me : yes. 1230am.
Dad : u know is 1230am and u still don't wanna come back home early ar.
Me : aiyar nobody would wanna rape or snatch me. Use car bang him then he goes hell.
Dad : *speechless* u know many bad guys outside? Must becareful.
Me : I know.
Dad : u know good. Next time come back earlier.
Me : okay.
* walk up stairs *
* bang * door closed.

Well actually I never went to friend's house.
I went singing with Jiayi, Cheryl, Doreen and Shu Yin.
Last minute decision.
Before the mall,
We went oldtown yam char/dinner.
I ordered my favourite noodle there. As usual.
And 7 up with lemon.
I never wanted the lemon but jia yi ticked it wrongly.
BaoShian and Jiayin went too.
Bao shian went home early.
Jiayin went home when we were leaving oldtown.
We gossip a lot about humans.
U know I know. Shh, secret.
Well, this is humans.
Nothing can change them.
All I can said.

Well, besides that.
We took a lot of photos.
A lot of funny photos.
Will post it later on facebook.
Check it out.
Well I'll crop me out.


Well we met loh kah wai ( dunno who but seen him before )
And suyi, kwee fei and few people not that close.
They were celebrating kah wai b'day.
None of my business anyway.
Just crap.
Again we were shooting human's boyfriend.
Gossiping again.
Non stop.

I saw my violin teacher with his fiancee at oldtown discussing her wedding plan.
She getting married soon.
Finally ! Haha.

Now I realised kuantan is so difficult to get a skirt.
A floral printed skirt is so tough.
Kuantan small town.
Went KL and regretted never bought it.

*sigh*
*sigh*

Crap again.
Peace and night.

shocked.

oh great. today was a lovely day.
i love today.
and i hated today as well because school gonna reopen soon.
today.
i realised.
something.

i always said my parents don't care about me.
but after today.
i accidentally.
saw something.
something took my heart.
they really care about me.
in the past, well..
i'm narrow minded and thought that everyone is living better than me and my dad doesn't give me everything.
well.
i know it now.
now.
is the moment where i realised.
but still i still blame my mom never buy me good clothes when im small because every mom wants their daughter to look pretty in dresses and pants.
but my mom is way different.
she doesn't shop.
she doesn't dress up.
she doesn't make up.
most of all she doesn't cook.
well, that's different.
since small i never had pretty dresses.
okay most of the time my dad who does the shopping.
so whatever he bought is pants and tees.
well that's what dad usually buy right?
they don't buy dresses.
and most of it is blue, black, white or grey.

while writing.
i remember tomorrow is father's day.
i didn't get anything for my dad.
because i dunno what he wants.
i guess he'd everything.
everything.
and thinking to get him a pants that he usually wears : DOCKER'S
well A PANTS COST RM 680.
i can't afford it at all.
so, forgot about it.

and thinking to get him a working bag.
because his using that bag is old.
well again.
walked into the prada shop.
* mouth and eyes wide opened *
the bag cost me RM 8000.
WELL again.
forgot about it.

and last decision is bring him for dinner.
haha.
dinner. is soooo common now a days.
i wanted to do something special and well can't afford any of that.
i asked him : what do u want for father's day?
dad : well nothing. * busying *
me : then u wanna change your working bag?
dad : yes of course. u see how bad it is?
me : well do u want the same brand ( Prada )?
dad : well prada has a good quality. i can use it for 10 years min.
me : okay. well i have no money for that.
dad : u can get me when u start to work.
me : when i start to work, u already stop working.
dad : well there is always not enough money. i still need to work until u all graduate from university and got a good job before i quit my job.
me : well okay as u wish. i hope my job can afford your prada.
dad : no need to think too much now. i never expect anything from you and mei. i just want u all to succeed in your studies and get good grade and stop LAZY.
me : well LAZY is inherited. like father like daughter.
dad : stop arguing something like that with me. i never lazy. i work 24/7 to get money for u to spend on your clothes your car even your bags. and most of all i need to keep some for your university.
me : hm, i try to spend less.
dad : yes. spend less mean helping me a lot of favour.
me : HEY STOP SAYING ME LIKE THAT. well i'm a girl and i grown up. i need clothes.
dad : u've sooo many clothes in your closet u bought and u never wear it.
me : well it's not the right time.
dad : if now is not the right time, when is the right time?
me : see first, if i've the time to sort out all the clothes.
dad : don't buy too much. buying = money gone.
me : OKAY. STOP ASKING ME quit shopping.
dad : well, anyhow u never grow in my eyes. u still my daughter and i need to care.
me : . . . .
dad : i give u everything that i could. other may living in a big house driving big cars but i'm happy in living in a small house where i can see u'll talking and laughing rather than just a big house, everyone hiding in their own room and do their own stuff that not i want.
me : * ..... *
dad : *lecturing time* well i want a home not a house. home is made of love while house is made of brick. when u all finds a job and creating new family, left only 2 old citizen staying in a house. and for sure u never wanna stay with us anymore. i just want a simple life. low profile.
me : dad please. i'm not 17+ not even 18 and u starting to mumble something sooo far away.
dad : plan for the future. i've so many things in my brain and u expect me to remember everything? plan for your future too. it's time.
me : well i'd planned.
dad : say about your future then, see what can i help u.
me : u can't help me anything. u just need to pay for my fees in university that's more than enough and give me sufficient allowance and i be super happy.
dad : well allowance to let u shop till u drop?
me : yes. well i won't drop. just maybe leg pain.
dad : i've all in my mind. so don't worry. now u need is to study.
me : study BORING. whatever. i'll try.
dad : yes that's the spirit. i won't force u to do something u don't like. i just want you to get a good job and don't hold on to someone to help u. be independent.
* phone ringing *
me : * thank god the phone rings *
dad : well i need to go outstation now. so take care of the home, lock the doors, close the windows, take care of your own lunch and dinner. i'll be back soon. and don't talk to stranger.
me : i'm not 5 years old kid anymore and i know how to differentiate stranger and friends. * = =" *
dad : anything. * rush rush rush * bye jie.
me : byeee dee.
* car engine *
* drove away *

sigh.
although i hear the lecturer thingy millions of time.
well.
dad's.

last night.
i dream about i went for disneyland.
well it's a sweet dream.
disneyland.
haha!
i dream i went with bunch of friends.
and we sat for the rollar coster.
and fang yuan said she scare of the game and starting to puke.
hahaha! that's her.
and we even played bungy jump.
wooh !
i wanted to play so bad in real life.
well that's all i cant write about today.

craps.
peace.

simple.

Rise and shine.
Parents not at home. *yay*
Outstation. But I need to go for tuition class.
Damn! Chemistry.
Well it's time to get busy again.
School reopening soon.
Back to school well equal to back to hell.

Oh! I haven't done my math T tuition homework.
Okay I shld say I haven't done any homework.
Thought of doing today but I think won't happen.
Well, I'm a last minute person.
Still haven't change much although I'm growing.
Mind still the same.
Crap a lot.
Sleep a lot.
Eat a lot ( but never grew fat before )
Talk a lot ( I think so )
Laugh for no reason a lot.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha.
well this is me.

My friend Lishen Tan is coming soon and we're going to watch eclipse together I think.
Well, she's a good future accountant. Everytime I bring her out of course help me to count the discount price.
Because my math is really bad. REALLY BAD !
And I think she knews many stuff since she buys a lot of things before.
Ha-ha-ha-ha.
Miss the time shopping together.
Well miss the time I've no money she borrowed me. *wink*
Most of all miss the time she teaches me math.
Sorry for being so dumb and don't understand. *guilty*
I hope now BaoShian won't get crazy while teaching me math.
HAHAHA.
I know I'm kinda MCC sometimes. No! Is most of the time.
Forgive me friends.

Crap a lot.
Peace.

miss my friend.

weird.
most of the friends from college is back/ reconnect.
i'm so happyyyy : )
had been a long time we never chatted that long for once.
well, love it.
<3
everyone is back when the school is reopen.
what a bad timing.
but we still have time to share our stories.
i've soo many story to tell my friends.
3 days 3 nights also cannot finish.

it has been very long they went for studies.
especially Kan Yin Ying.
i still remember the time we sleep we talk we eat in the class during free period.
and MOST OF ALL we talk craps.
we talked about celebrities. people. stuff. everything nice. and maybe talk bad about people xD
but who cares. we're having fun.
but time flies.
i remembered once during form 4, teacher separate class because our bad result.
and everyone were crying like there's no tomorrow.
when rethink about it, it is so funny of us crying just to change class.
but the end, we didnt change after all.
and now, they moved away and we didn't cry. omg.
it's so funny.
funny us.
remember the moments. thank god we appreciated it and memories were built.

remembered lots of past time today.
and felt how silly i was. and how silly we were last time.
well, now we'd grown up.

all of the past will be a memories.
memories stays inside.
love y'all.
peace.

boredom.

bored bored bored i'm freaking bored.
okay. just back from the mall.
nothing special.
last minute decision not to watch movie and went to somewhere stupid that is the kbox.
okay, that move was stupid.
i went in alone and the guy asked me : u going to sing alone?
i replied him : yes do u saw other human besides me?
* giggle * weird question and a weird answer.
nothing special during singing.
after finished singing, well, i shop awhile.
and ended up nothing to buy.
i was so bored so i drove home.
it's so lame. wasted my money to sing alone and paid for the parking ticket rm 1.
anyway, i think this will be my first and my last time singing alone.
before the mall.
back from tuition class and doing something funny in the room without my sister and my dad notice.
lolll
well nobody seems to care.
haha haha haha haha * laugh *
of course prepared for the mall and capture some photos.
suddenly my dad pop into the room and asked what am i doing.
haha, thank god i was sitting at the corner.
and my dad asked : why u sitting at the corner alone and doing nothing?
i replied him : well im bored and i've nothing to do.
dad : well study or do your homework.
me : well i dunno how to do homework and study is so boring. let me rest for the holiday.
dad : anything u wish. since u're so boring, why don't u be my driver and fetch me to the bank?
me : i'm lazy. you can take my car if you wanted to.
dad : always lazy. do something more useful. go wash your shoes.
me : mei helps me wash already and i paid her.
dad : okay. then your wear so nice where u wanna go?
me : im going to the mall.
dad : i thought u lazy wanna go out?
me : go to the mall buy something.
dad : okay. do have enough money to buy the things u want?
me : no. give me rm 200 then.
dad : what you buying?!
me : nothing, just incase.
*phone ringing * dad's.
dad : i'm busy now i'm going out. take care yourself and your sister. get her something to eat.
me : whatever.
* walked away * *door closed *
and the most IMPORTANT is he HAVEN'T give me money.

well, on the road to the mall.
OMG i saw a malay scratching his butt beside the road = ="
and i hon him.
and he looked at me and gave me a middle finger.
HAHAHAHA
and i gave him back a middle finger and drove off as fast as possible.
well those people had no culture at all.
PLEASE never ever scratching your ass in the public. it's hideous.
HIDEOUS i mean.

okay.
crap a lot.
peace.

new day.

Morning.
Tuition-ing now but it's so boring.
Decided to blog something.
Ok, firstly.
DNA is bored. Too bad I must interact with it for months.
Thank god I didn't overslept.
Manage to go for tuition class. He-he-he.
On my way to the place I heading, I drove very slowwww.
Ok it's not my style for driving so slow.
Just thinking something else while driving.
The something :
Well, it's hard to not to argue in our daily life.
As outsider in an argument, I think just so stupid to argue over closing a tap.
It's sooo stupid.
When they started to complain about it, plant the previos argument and relate to the next thing.
I can't find a word for it.
Especially when they're an adult.
Adult. Please, be more clear and stop acting like kindergarden.
Somehow, I can ignore it most of the time.

2ndly, I talk differently in real life and in messenger.
Whoa, that's the first time I heard.
Well, maybe I talk differently and I don't realise it.
I can said is I not talkative person.
I prefer going solo than being in a whole gang.
Well, gang thing is not really suit me though.
Well, I still dunno whether is a good thing or a bad thing.
Get used to it somehow.

3rdly, I'm bad in socialise.
Be classmates for like 4 years and I never talked even a word with them.
*sigh*
I dunno what's going wrong.
I'm difficult to talk to? Or I think too much?
Forget about it.
The next 2 years I think will remain the same.
Used to it.
Loner is suitable for me I guess. : X

That's all the random thing I wanna update.
Well just last minute thoughts.
Peace.

Take Care of my Girlfriend ( say no ) - B2ST

Oneul nae chinguga mul-eoss-eo neowa sagwimyeon an doegess nyago
Eochapi ijen neowa heeojin nae daesin neoleul akkyeo jugessdago

That that that that that's ok
Get get get get away
Gwaenchanh-a mwo uli gwangye nam-eun jeongdo eobsneunde
Mian hadan mal-eun geumandwo eochapi gaseum an apeo
Nae daesin joh-eun namja chinguga dwaejwo

Ajig neo ttaemun-e jam mosneunde geuleohge malhajileul moshae ilu
Eogji us-eum-e gyeoglyeokkaji deohae chinguleul bonaejwossjiman oh girl

Oh can't u see I'm still lovin' you
Ajig nae mam-i neol bonael suga eobs-eo

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Andoendago malhae ajig ni mam sog-e nal gidaligo issdago say no!

Sul-eun manh-i moshae dambae yeongineun silh-eohae
Honjaissneun geo silh-eo hanikka eonjena hamkke

Iss-eojwo saeng-il ginyeom-il-eun kkogkkog chaeng-gyeojwo
Nan waei jis-eulhago issna dodaeche wae

Dol-a seomyeonseo huhoehal geomyeonseo eogjilo meos-issneun cheog haess-eo
Chingu dwieseo hwaleul nael geomyeonseo an doelago bil geomyeonseo

Oh can't u see I'm still lovin' you
Ajig nae mam-i neol bonael suga eobs-eo

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Andoendago malhae ajig ni mam sog-e nal gidaligo issdago

(Say) no no no (say) andoendago (say) geu salam gidalil geola aaa go
(Say) no no no (say) andoendago (say) geu salam gidalil geola aaa go

Ajig neo ttaemun-e jam mosneunde geuleohge malhajileul moshae ilu
Eogji us-eum-e gyeoglyeokkaji deohae chinguleul bonaejwossjiman oh girl

Oh can't u see I'm still lovin' you
Ajig nae mam-i neol bonael suga eobs-eo

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Andoendago malhae ajig ni mam sog-e nal gidaligo issdago say no!


although i dunno what they're singing but somehow the rhythm is catchy and the lyrics in english is meaningful. = )

September - Daughtry love this lyrics.

how the time passed away
all the trouble that we gave
and all those days we spent out by the lake
has it all gone to waste?
all the promises we made
one by one they vanish just the same

of all things i still remember
summer's never looked the same
the years go by and time just seems to fly
but the memories remain

in the middle of september we'd still play out in the rain
nothing to lose but everything to gain
reflecting now on how things could've been
it was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear
there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly by
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how
We would end up here the way we are
Yeah we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly by
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

drama.

oh great. Jiayi asked me to create a blog and i found out i'd one BEFORE long time ago. it's so damn lame of me.
ok. back to basics. random things to update. form 6 life is fun.
lets talk about last few weeks things that happened.
first of all.
went to KL with parents and i felt kinda bored with them in the hotel and i called a guy Kee Hong Cheng out for a walk at the mall : Times Square.
My first time monorail alone. not that bad after all.
Then something happened. regretted = (
forgot about that.
The 2nd week again went to KL with my friend, Fang Yuan. that even sad. forgot about it also. nothing really special also.
on 15th of june 2010, my friend Hon Chiew Ee came back from NS camp and we went out for movie and of course my beloved dai lou, MR Ng Che Siong for a movie : Nightmares at the Elm street.
my friend, Chen Bao Shian's friend said is so scary that might scare me to death.
when the movie finished, its kinda funny though. * laugh *
thanks dai lou for treated me the movie = )
then we walked to a bookstore to get Hon some stationary and books.
finished buying, we'd no place to head to so we walk from the 3rd floor to the ground floor.
finally, i decided to go home.
and dai lou i dunno where he went. ( probably waiting for his dad )


on 16th of june, we went movie AGAIN. yes AGAIN. GSC BIG FANS *woot*
karate kid is nice but kinda bored when they talking talking and talking.
okay the whole row was taken by us i think 17 people i guess.
before the movie, we went to the kbox for a sing.
while my dear ah yi and her friends were singing, im 'busing' texting dai lou because most of them holding the microphone and the only thing i can do is texting.
at 2pm, i can't stand anymore. so i walked out the room and get some peace outside.
there's no peace outside somehow. bad decision.
so Jiayin and i were thinking to find the boys.
and *puff* the guys appear infront of us. inside the so called capcom place playing racing car i think.
so we decided to take the photo machine thingy. and cost me RM18.
but i love the picture.
looks pretty. <3 *not boosting*
and somehow we're late for the movie and we rushed in.
there is a guy so called mei li de shou pull my hand forcely to push me into the line.
feeling to punch him but patience is nirvana.
okay lastly, the movie finished and everyone go home.

today is 17th of june.
yay! go for badminton.
okay today badminton was weird. something was wrong somewhere.
forgot about it. it's not important.
played with bao and dai lou and see yong.
comments about bao : wahhh she improved of course thanks to me, her teacher. he-he-he.
comments about dai lou : AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA all i can do is laugh only. funny funny funny.
comments about see yong : i crashed him down. victory !
during the game, i saw a naked ah pek walking without his shirt on. OMG i just don't understand why they wanna take off their shirt with that horrible body shape with that big 'boobs' and a 3 month pregnant stomach.
so funny. - -"
my balls gone gone gone! *sigh* nevermind. meant to be that way.
okay end of my day.

i'm kind of lazy to write in details. other let's keep it as a secret.
you know i know somebody know that's more than enough.
d^.^b