erruption.

school having this volleyball competition.

well, i went there just to sit.

and burned by the sun.

the finalists are FU and bear bear hong.

and bear bear hong won.

good job !

most of the time were sitting down chit chatting and hear ipod.

but when until the end, it 1pm in the afternoon, everyone is hot.

everyone wants to end the game as fast as possible.

so, just quietly watch it.

so they can concentrate..

but there is someone.

shout with SOPRANO's voice that annoyed me.

well, this is not the first time.

i burried my fire for quite some times.

she just talked too much.

so i scolded her.

so who cares?

i never like to scold people.

but that is just... annoyed.

but forget about it.

it's over.

and she deserves it.

((((((:

craps.

peace.

confusion.

firstly, it has been long time i haven't update my blog.

well, i'm having this confusion.

i think it's better to spill it out.

well, i just got my result.

actually at first i never ever mind about my result.

NEVER.

i know i didn't study.

i didn't revise.

didn't expect much hope on it.

but today there's a girl she said : i didn't study math in school also can get higher mark than others.

seriously, did u ever ever think about what others think?

firstly, people are at the top.

and i'm always at the bottom..

i don't mind being a bottom one.

but atleast don't step me like i'm worthless.

conclusion : worthless.

yesterday, when baoshian told me about her problem with sister..

i'm belong to her sister, not her.

i can get what her sisters were thinking.

i just can't give a proper advice to her because i'm just like them.

what to do?

just accept the truth.

i don't think i've any thing better than others.

i'm just worthless.

but that time, i stop being emotional and give her what the best she thinks.

i hope she got it.

people never knew.

never understand.

all i can do is pretended and fake smile every time face problems.

now i really think....

that i should give up my ambition.

it's meaningless.

i can't be thinking something it won't happen.

because i won't be happening.

i really really need to stop dreaming.

when people is at the top of the mountain, they'll never look back.

for me, look back is something i does all the time.

this shows i'm not at the top of the mountain.

craps.

peace.