think too much.

i hope that i think too much for once.

but it doesn't suit like that.

i'm just being over thinking most of the time.

i'm in a place where i don't belong too.

i'm at a situation where i'm being transparent.

when i'm at a place that where i don't belong too

i don't feel myself.

i never feel myself.

i don't feel myself everywhere.

only the one place i can feel myself is when i'm with the one.

but after that, i don't feel myself anymore.

i don't feel safe anywhere anytime.

it's like one day, i'll drown into a black hole.

and blow me away.

people don't get it.

but it's not their problem after all.

i don't blame anyone for this.

i just wanna be my ownself.

pretended and hiding the truth is not i really planned to do.

but somehow, somewhere i need to do it.

to cover my sadness inside.

u'll never know i cried behind my mask.

i just want a simple life.

normal family

normal friends.

normal school.

normal life.

normal thinking.

i used to be the kid that no one cared about

that's why i've to keep screaming till they hear me out.

i don't wanna end my life just like that.

i'm trying.

at least..

let me try it out.

i guess there's no second chance.

i know i can survive someday.

in this complicated world.

through this complication.

and burst it out

pass through the tunnel of hell.

my afterlife.

hold on tight.

i know i can.

don't drown.

live my life.

will try to forget everything

and stop thinking too much about something i don't really need to.

just ignore the world outside.

and be just who am i.

i am who i am.

take it or leave it.

craps.

peace.