scared

these few days was having great time shopping.
well, not that great.
while shopping, faught with mom.
everything i got she'll scold and complained about it.
i'm sick with it.
i hate shopping with her.

just some family problem i've to solve.
dad scolding mom.
i feel bad.
really bad for my mom.
she looks old at a glance.
i miss my mom.
my dad really need to go for anger management.
he's sick in his mind.
and i don't like him.

well, miss my mom helped me wash my clothes.
feel bad for her.
last time, when she cooked for us,
we complained about the food not nice.
all the same everyday.
now suddenly she no need to cook.
just miss her cooking.
she always complained our room is messy
and we never even bother about it.
she always scolded us that we simply throw our books.
and we never even care about it.
she encouraged us to do this and that.
but we never hear what she said.

will try to help her in everything.
and most of all
will listen to her.
just miss her.
and she's tired.
she needed a help.
and i'll help her.

having this feeling : scare.
is frequently happen.
i just scare i'll lost everything in this world.
lost everything.
i wish this feeling never will come anymore.

craps.
peace.