STRUGGLE

i can't believe that i'm having this super weird feelings.
this feeling i don't know how to say about.
some times, it's not that i don't want to say or act but is the thing on my mind i can't get off with.
and tired of telling the same thing over and over and over again.
still never listen.
i really don't want to care about it.
but what to do?
it's hard! can't just do what should you do?
don't be such tingle around like a kid.
grow up.

i really have to give up upon you some times.
but after an advice, i decided to do my own way.
that is give up and don't help you anymore.
helping you since day 1 is ruining your life like piece of shit.
you never listen.
and i really tired of telling you.
and tired of listening to your bullshit.
games is all you have.
then have fun with it.

second weird feelings is when i feel that i'm stingy.
ugh i don't know whether it's weird to feel something like this but somehow, my money is way more enough to be rich and eat and stay a healthy lifestyle.
but because of borrowing you, i have to eat instant noodles and eat something is way not my food.
and i really hate it.
really do.
and i don't know what to do.

ugh forget about it.
bye.