confusion.

firstly, it has been long time i haven't update my blog.

well, i'm having this confusion.

i think it's better to spill it out.

well, i just got my result.

actually at first i never ever mind about my result.

NEVER.

i know i didn't study.

i didn't revise.

didn't expect much hope on it.

but today there's a girl she said : i didn't study math in school also can get higher mark than others.

seriously, did u ever ever think about what others think?

firstly, people are at the top.

and i'm always at the bottom..

i don't mind being a bottom one.

but atleast don't step me like i'm worthless.

conclusion : worthless.

yesterday, when baoshian told me about her problem with sister..

i'm belong to her sister, not her.

i can get what her sisters were thinking.

i just can't give a proper advice to her because i'm just like them.

what to do?

just accept the truth.

i don't think i've any thing better than others.

i'm just worthless.

but that time, i stop being emotional and give her what the best she thinks.

i hope she got it.

people never knew.

never understand.

all i can do is pretended and fake smile every time face problems.

now i really think....

that i should give up my ambition.

it's meaningless.

i can't be thinking something it won't happen.

because i won't be happening.

i really really need to stop dreaming.

when people is at the top of the mountain, they'll never look back.

for me, look back is something i does all the time.

this shows i'm not at the top of the mountain.

craps.

peace.