i'm ________

i'm selfish.

i always think about myself and never for him.

i really feel super super bad and sad.

and i always want think to go very perfectly without think about others.

especially him.

he always please me.

but i always want everything to be perfect.

but i know nothing is perfect.

every time i feel like when i wanted something,

i will expect something super badly.

but i know it won't happen.

but still in my mind, i wanted it to happen.

but when i didn't get it, i started to get very pissed off.

from the beginning, it's always won't happen

but why should i waiting miracle to happen?!

urgh.

i don't really like it.

until today.

he told me.

i hope miracle to happen to him.

i know he trying his best.

but i still wish something to come on very perfectly.

we always argue over a small thing.

like today.

just for a stupid haircut.

i think the haircut is good.

but he said it's not that good and paid RM10

and the girl only cut very small part.

and wasted money.

after hearing this..

i really felt super sad.

i wish that the haircut should be good.

and once a perfect night.

but i expecting too much !

but now i understand nothing is perfect.

wish that he tried his best and i will accept it.

like chiew ee said : guys dating is the most stress moment ever.

well, it's true.

i shouldn't give him too much pressure..

well, support his decision.

and should not complain.

i don't like to argue.

it's very tiring.

and it's stupid !

can we just talk and discuss peacefully ?!

urgh.

im selfish !

i want peaceful.

not argument all the time.

stressing me out !