long time.

it has been a long time.

busy with school work as usual.

tuition.

and now having CNY.

atleast a week to relax..

but while relaxing, still have lots of homework to do.

but still have to do.

exam after school reopen.

sigh.

these few days.

i don't feel good.

it's a very bad day for me.

i don't know whether is my problem.

i feel like i over reacted.

over asking.

over board.

and fight and quarrel with parents and friends.

i don't like it.

i really don't like it.

i just don't wanna quarrel.

it's very sad and hard to accept it.

and it makes me emo and moody the whole day.

it's just a normal thing and i just make it into very big problem.

i don't know.

i just confused.

i'm sorry..

just give me some time.

i need to work things out.

i'm sorry..

i really don't like the situation now.

forgive me.

2011

it has been a new year.

a very busy year.

i'm just so damn tired after 2 weeks of schooling.

i know it's tough to go thru this path.

it's not easy.

lots of homework.

less time on tv.

less time on computer.

more on tuition.

more on performance.

this week is the most busiest week.

firstly, having performance this sunday.

have to keep on practise practise.

to make me perfect.

and of course, it's not easy to be perfect.

got back from korea and australia.

in australia, i learned something.

it's different.

there's good and bad sometimes.

but no matter what, it always a experience.

chinese new year is coming soon.

after chinese new year over, need to get back up and start to brush up everything.

including violin.

now, still need to prepare for the worst.

worst is awaiting.

my cousin came to kuantan for 2 weeks.

and today is her birthday.

happy birthday, sam !

but she's going back to australia tormorrow.

i miss her ):

miss her jokes and the way she talked.

wish that she can come earlier this year.

i wanna get some sleep.

i'm really tired.

and i just have this bad mood.

i don't know.

i need vitamin water to boost me up !

):

just want someone to stay beside me ):

craps.

peace.

mood swing.

i realised.

people is not what i seen from the beginning.

people always change.

i don't get it.

why wanna treat people differently?

u may not know about it.

but people experienced it will feel it.

just try to be normal be normal as possible.

trying to act so cool and bring yourselves up high.

what's the point?

ya, people hunger for popularity.

get it.

many friends.

some treat you good.

some just trying to be nice.

don't treat you sincerely

so what for gaining so many unessesary friend at the first place.

oh ya, popularity again.

can u just forget about the popularity and concentrate being a morale person?!

what's wrong with people?

PLUS

sometimes we don't get what we want.

but don't get it so emotional and trying to get angry over a small thing.

u don't get it means you don't get it.

no point of crying !

giving that stupid look is so annoying sometimes.

grow up people.

get a life.

when somebody just scolded you or talking about something else,

can't u just shut up and ignore her?

what's the point of fighting back her?

people getting bad mood, you not in the good mood.

making whole trip so stupid and sucks.

fight over small thing..

urgh, it's so stupid sometimes.

PLUS

sorry to korean big fans.

not specific to anyone.

just sometimes, what so special about korean guys?

i can't get it.

talking about them every single day. hours. minutes. seconds.

don't get bored of it.

sucks.

screwed.

something happened.

i'm freaking scared.

screwed.

screwed.

screwed.

screwed.

will get nag soon.

craps.

peace.