This is me.

This is who I am, and I don't get why people have to criticise for what I've did & what I'd done in my past.

I like to be alone with no crowd because I hate approaching people.
I like to be organised because I feel life without a plan is such wasted.
I like things to go my own way because I feel this is right and what the best for me.

I'm picky because I want the best for myself.
If you don't want to have the best for yourselves it's your problem.
I'm selfish because I only can trust myself no matter where am I.

I've learn what is fake. Now, I learn to adapt to it.
I've learn to keep to myself, because nobody will understand.
I've learn to hide, because its to protect myself.

But somehow no matter how to hide, or keep your bloody fucking mouth shut, and did nothing, people will still always stab u right behind & say something bad about you.

I don't have to kiss your fucking ass so I can be successful in the future.
What I will be is what I've trade in for.
I learn the hard way.
If you don't like for who I am, u can just get your own life straight and go on without me. I don't need people to bullshit me.

I don't like my life right now but I've no choice anymore.
This is not I want but I can't get what I want.
I will keep on push myself to do something what I suppose to do and not something I love to do.

No mercy.

ON MY MIND

it's Chinese New Year.

and i don't feel the spirit of the new year.

& worst is money inside the angpau is decreasing year by year.

economy getting worst or people getting stingy?

forget about it, that's not the main point.

speak out, what can u speak out by this?

recently i've some problem.

problem with people.

i've been keeping it low profile so i would keep it as you know i know situation.

but after getting telling friends, i realised i'm making mistake telling it.

i really don't feel like telling people.

i tell you because i trusted you.

but somehow, i regretted for telling.

still problem with people.

some people just self-centered.

i don't know what can i do and say to help sometimes.

i'm outta help but who can i call for help?

u've your temper so do i.

u put your temper on me and slave for your temper.

this is what i hate the most.

i don't deserve it.

you can be king and queen of the world but u ain't messing with me.

i don't like it, i hate it.

i've my dignity.

i belongs to myself.

NEW OBSESSION

again, about fashion.
saw it on some books and magazine introducing Dr Martens BOOTS.
wearing boots in malaysia.. is hot
i know! but seriously the boots looks so cute u can't barely just walk away from them.

damn nice for those boots but they don't sell it at malaysia or even singapore.
BUT then, i guess hot country won't have a chance to wear it BECAUSE it's so hot.