hard to breathe.

breathing is a thing that we do all the time. every single second we breathe in air.

and every single air we breathed in and exhaled it's not easy to achieve.

i understand when u gasping for air, just like end of the world.

wish the pain would go away soon but it doesn't.

we're human.

we have ups and downs.

problems to solve.

question to be answered.

answer to be discovered.

sometimes 24 hours is not sufficient for me. i need more than 24 hours to solve all my problem.

somehow, things will never change. people will stay the same but just that change is the way they treated you.

holy god, i don't know why u wanna bring me into this world?

this world is not like a fairy tales.

not always butterfly and rainbow.

rain pouring with pretty sky and feel the sun rise and sun set.

without worrying about something else in this world.

i just got very tired sometimes.

family, always cause me problems.

i don't like problems. i wish they would be more considering and care about something more important more.

not about the car or the clothes or maybe mopping the floor.

i need you to support me.

i just don't like to just left me alone facing the problem.

when something too late, it's too late.

i can't go back to time and wish that something will go on again and again. all i want is just something different, that's all i want.

i really tired all cope about something that around me.

i don't want u to be tired but i understand, u're human, u're not superman.

i don't want to tell u all those because u'll get frustrated.

i don't want to see u with a sad face.

i don't want u to be sad.

i really really want u to smile and just be happy everytime with me.

i need you sometimes but u just can't be with me all the time.

i don't really mind, all i need is your caring.

your one word will change a lot.

but sometimes i really wish to see you and hear you.

if you can give your time to me, i would be very happy.

very happy !

but still memories will still remains.

happy memories will always appear in my mind.

laughter. your humour. even the way u tease me.

hahahahahaha. just love it.

<3 no need to say much (:

last but not least.

time to study. need to catch up all the syllables.

ncs, thanks for d support (:

History.

Now I understand what Jiayi is going through.

I feel what she felt.

A person, A truth, A trust.

It's very important.

Is it so hard to talk?

Maybe just a chat?

I know i'm not good in socialize.

So, no matter what.

I don't like to talk.

But it different now.

i choose to say nothing.

I don't involved myself in anything.

I QUIT.

Let's get over it.

If u want to talk, just talk.

If u don't want to talk, then don't talk.

I don't force.

But making the right choice is very important.

This determine everything.

mouth shut.

it's CNY.

i can tell i'm bored.

i slept from 1230pm till 530pm.

5 hours.

i'm just bored.

well, went back to KB.

and all i can do is sit and keep quiet.

i've nothing to talk to my cousins.

not just cousins.

even friends.

forget about it.

i'm a bored person.

very bored person.

went to my friend's house.

the most i talked to is 3 people over 10 people i guess.

and most of all i just sit and do nothing.

i don't talk to my old classmates.

i don't talk to my new classmates.

how funny is it?

who can i talk to??

my life is bored.

topicless.

and most of all i can just keep quiet.

while others can talk non stop with others.

maybe i should just stay at home and do nothing..?

i miss my old friend, vee aii.

i can talk anything just everything in this world with her.

and we just crap and gossip.

but now.

time change.

it's hard to find a person that can talk to u.

and YIN YING too.

i miss her and she's not coming back.

just wish can go back time and talk to her anything during chinese period.

just miss talking to them.

it's hard to find a friend that can talk to.

not just any friend can talk everything.

sometimes...

when u're not compatible with those friends, u're not but at least try..

trying.. but i think failed..

=(

craps.

peace.